breaking my own heart!

I rushed right in
Just like a fool
So struck down by you
I didn't know what to do

I started on
Breaking my own heart
Breaking my own heart
Breaking my own heart
Yeah

I started on
Breaking my own heart
Breaking my own heart

Yeah, I was frozen
By the pain
I tried
To reach out to you
But I felt so ashamed

So, I kept on
Breaking my own heart
Breaking my own heart
Breaking my own heart

I kept on
Breaking my own heart
Breaking my own heart

Save me
Somebody save me
From this misery
Love is killing me
Please save me

I need saving
Won't somebody save me
From this misery
Love is killing me
Ooo, save me

I hung on
To every word you say
In search of a sign boy
You felt the same way

But it was only me
Breaking my own heart
Breaking my own heart
Breaking my own heart

If I keep on
Breaking my own heart
Breaking my own heart

Save me
Won't somebody save me
From this misery
Love is killing me
Save me

I need saving
Won't somebody save me
From this misery
Love is killing me
Ooo, save me

Ooh Save
I said "Save me"
From this misery
Love is killing me
Please save me

This song r so wat i felt now!!! Esp.the line that i highlight! I really Breaking my own heart!!!
Pretty stupid huh! but this song r nice! i really love it!

Broken inside!

which one do u prefer more
lollipops or gum? gums
america or britain? americans
strawberries or bananas? bananas
spiderman or batman? batman...badboy boleh????
rocks or stones? stones!!!
may or october? may...
17 or 92? ermmm 17
scared or humiliated? scared..
bunny or rabbit? rabbit
tan or burgandy? burgandy
tropical or temperate? tropical
rabid dog or rabid raccoon? rahid racoon
vamps or werewolves? vamps
insomniac or nocturnal? huh, me i think insomniac

have you ever...
jumped off a house? gile...20 tingkat???mati laa
swam in freezing ice water? no
been attacked? by a crazy Dog...so yeassss!!!!
been made fun of? no
cried for no reason? yes..crazy huh!
been out of the country? yup
thought about death? yeshh
gotten seriously injured? never
gotten bit by someone? haha...it was Johnny"dasar lelaki kasar!"
screamed bloody murder? no...
been to a concert? yeah love it...
eaten snow? no snow here in m'sia
killed anyone? never
hurt somone psychially? nope
made someone cry? 2 or 3 laa..padan muka mereka
played with matches? nahhhh
been on a plane? yup
been to jail? hehehe i wish
laughed so hard it hurt? yeasss
read a book? hahaha yeah
tasted blood? my own...yeasss
cried yourself to sleep? yup when i was so little laa
physically hurt yourself on purpose? hehehe never
gotten revenge? nahhh
broken a promise? hehe yeah sometimes
been to church? ????muslim laa
hidden a part of your personality from the world?nope
blown a bubble (from your gum) while underwater? hehehe never
ran into a pole? yes
been extremely bored? yeah sometimes
played chess with a stranger? never
made a wild concoction and ate it? ewww
had a sad dream and woke up crying? never
lost a soul you loved? yeahh it's hurt
fell out of a tree? no...
lied about your age? never
been food poisoned? never
gone over Niagara Falls in a barrel? i wish

when's the last time you...
got kicked or slapped? ermmm 13 or 14(slapped)
talked on the phone? today
played a sport? hahaha
gone to camp? when i was 12
stayed home sick? x ingat laa
baked a cake? woohooo last 3 years
sang aloud? now.....
listened to music? now.... lady gaga
seen the snow? m'sia x de snow laa
went
got in a fight? yes! w this guy name Hafizan..he such a loser!
video taped? yeass yesterday, while singing Amoi cantik by Hujan heehehehe
saw a friend? everyday
went in a hottub? hehhe best laa
head banged? just now....
got a headache? now
tripped or fell? x ingat
got hurt? yesterday....
ate froot loops? ewwww
smiled? everyday but inside crying!
laughed? eveyday
swore out loud? yes!

do you like...
gum? yeah...dentyne berrykiss muahmuahh hahhaa
drums? if someone willing to teach me hehehe
britain? not really
tigers? baby tiger cute....
blood? no
waiting? 4 him 2 notice it n its hurt
telling people off? yeah
labels? hehhe yeahhh
winning? love it
competetition? it's hard bluekkk
sunlight? hate it!
night time? yeahhhh

just answer the questions...
what was the last book you've read? magazine laa book nope
what was the last movie you watched? he just not in to u- i really like it! coz man r jerk to me rite now!
whens the last time you sang jingle bells? last q'mas
what kind of music do you listen to? everything
if you got to be the age you are in any year what year would it be? sexy 30 hahahaha
whats your name? azeela
do you like marshmellows? yeahhhh
whats something that pisses you off? annoying....
whats you pet peeve about yourself? my dark secret!
how do you spell doughnuts/donuts? donuts
do you have a cat? yeah...really love them....
how many more days until school starts? i gradute already laaa
where are you? kl,m'sia
do you have any current cuts or bruises? cuts @ my finger ouchhh!!!
whens the last time you went to the beach? sumwhere last year!
who's the last friend you saw? azizi....@staff enterance hehehehe
what was your first favourite band? local- estranged,internatoinal-toomany to choose haha, but right now is 30 seconds to mars!
are you chewing gum right now?no

Sayonara Browny....

Hoollllaaa =) wat's up people??? Hope everything r great w u guys!
This past 2 week i'm so EMO, dunno y! Keep getting Bad Fucking Shit News! Kudos to Browny, my working ppl, few of FB frens...arghhh Fucking shit!i hate u all! But still i'm smiling, laughing..so i won't give a damn bout any of u guys!

Last saturday went out w/ 2 of my couz & my sis...watched "he just not that into you"@Pavilion.. I like the movie a lot...after watching it, i realize that my feeling for Browny so freakin' stupid...i mean really stupid! I know u won't balieve it, but i do feel it so BODOH! Sorry browny, maybe u dh perasan that i like u. Yeah that really that obvious kan!!! So please ppl if i do meet him then cair, do slap me! hwahaha i'm serious! i sampai change my desktop pic...no more pic me n him!

So sorry guys... this post is so EMO n i curse a lot! so c ya around! So this song is wat i feel for Browny now! Sayonara...Browny....

"My Happy Ending"

So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do [CD version]
All the stuff that you do [radio edited version]

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus]

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

[Chorus x2]

[x2]
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...


Jijie Adore =)

zzzZZZzzzz

Holla all.... hw r u doin?? well i can't sleep maybe i minum nescafe ice td. So i decided to post a blog, lagi pon dh lama x update rite =)
Juz now i watch Unzipped @ 8tv website, kudos to Yaya for giving me the link.. so in the end of the video.
Browny said "The crowd is Awesome,crowd is great! Supportive! We met few of the crowd that been following us from the previous gig n everything. Rich managed to get them to sing, some of the song that their familiar with, like Itu kamu."
Awww i'm so touch! hehehe ;p
K enough of ANGAW...now wat happen in this few day!

Me having dinner w my bro(ijai),couz(Am) & sis amy @ TGIF, Pavilion. The food were nice..
That is Amy's doll,Scarlet apa ntah. Seriously the doll is so Scary. It's remind me of Chucky heheehe..
Amy said that i shud look @ this pic everyday, so i don't think that doll so scary hwahaha but i still do!

Wednesday 080409- My hotel giving out the certificate for those who didn't MC for 1 whole year.
Yeah n I got it!! but i didn't went to the event coz x nak naik stage(malas!)...so my Exec.Chef takes tha cert. on behalf of me. As a reward my hotel giving out RM 250+ certificate. Hehehe another budget 4 Bali baby!!!! hehe

Saturday 040409- So another gig from Estranged n i working Graveyard shifts..huhu! No sleep 4 me lor! Last saturday They having 2 gig in the same day, OU & Pavilion. Awesome rite? At 1st fieza n i planning wanna go both...but we got confused w Din's blog..so we decide to go @ OU... so @ OU meeting my dear2 fren( abby, yaya, k.na. halie, rin, sue ann & fiezza) After the show from Estranged, i told fiezza that i wanna go to Pavilion....
*sorry gurls but u know y i didnt stay to watch Pop shuvits. i wanna supports my Browny! but it doesn't mean i hate hangin out w u guys! so don't take it personally! i'm so so sorryyy! i still love u guys!
So @ Pavilion, we arrived @ 6pm...when 4 makan coz i x makan from mornink...huhu
then we when outside(main enterance) n we saw hanafi =) camwhoring session n enjoy ourself w the show! Then rushing balik rumah, mandi n trus g keje! So damn tired but thats totally worth it!
Y i really enjoying myself going to their gig/shows...coz i was amazed with their growing fans!
To Estranged fans U guys ROCKS!!!!!

OK guys gwe udah ngantuk banget! Effect from Nescafe not strong enough 4 me hwahaha
So until the next post! Do check out my youtube channel
http://www.youtube.com/user/sycoz

Adios take care & B safe =)
Cheers Jijie Adore ;p

In No Time MV

Taken from Estranged Myspace =)

Paling kiri tu i...i found this picture from Aidi Blog...so KUDOS to MR AIDI =)

Hello boys n girls. Remember i joined the Estranged- In No Time MV? At last the video is out....It was direct By Mr Rewan Ishak. For me, personally the video was AWESOME..but some shot are to fast n too close. But over all i LOVE it! I kinda saw the video like 20-25X n finally i can see my self in the video..ahaha...It feels so damn funny to see ur own face in the video...




So do enjoy watching the video =) ADIOS
Make LOVE Not WAR!!!



I'm JiJiE AdOrE ;p
http://www.youtube.com/user/estrangedkl

Sugar Glider

A sugar glider is a small nocturnal marsupial native to Australia and Indonesia. Super cute kann...i wan one!

Sampai Lebam

Wollaaa... Hollaaa...ahahaaa. Wats up all, work..ok! this week kinda great 4 me, bit BZ but still..i havin fun fooling around hehe. This post is bout MONYET!!!Yeahhh it's bout him. This week kami sgt mesra ahaha...NOT! Gaduh like biasa but still i MENANG,YAY! habis his arm lebam dicubit aku..ahaha*Padan muke!* Yeah bile aku dh cubit pasti akan lebam giler...4 kesan lebam yg ada kat monyet. Besar gak laa, sebesar 20sen! serve him rite, he n his big mouth.Bluekkkk ingat nih sekolah ke? Plz laa! UR not my TYPE!!!!!*Geli laa* But kesian gak arrr!!! mcm mangsa dera lakk si monyet! ahaha but kira aku baik gak laa still bcakap w him after all this SHIT! Yeah...!!! so GO girlPOWER hehe..

Sunburst...no i'm not goin'...so sedey! ya laa...walaupon artist line i kureng suke, but KORN! Shit man...!wanna MC but sian lakk kengkawan. So this year x de arrr sunburst 4 me. Hopefully next year ada JT, 30 second to mars, LP oso nice! who else???*Lapar lakkk!* hehe...ermmm sapa eyhhh Kate Perry oso can arrr,Paramore, Avenged sevenfold, Foo Fighters...waaa wajib g!!! Sedey gak Nidji ada this year..GIRING!!!!!!!!!! ahaha *kamu HOT banget sih...*

Lately i slaloo receive call/sms yg i tatau dr sapa. when i call the number back x angkat or x dpt! weird kannn! Wujud kah org itu???? i really hate ppl send u sms nk kenal2 laa n tanya stupid questions, like; dh makan? keje ke? then missed call2...ishh pantang tul rasa nak marah jea*EMO BANGET!* Sure i slaloo ignore, but rimas arrrr! X kan nak 2kar number lagi...ish rimas2! So 4 those yg pernah or b'niat nak lakukan gejala diatas HENTIKAN laaa...
merimaskan K! If u sincerely nk b'kawan juz call her/his up..n HOLLA! straight to the point WAH! so semua org HAPPY hehe

*Sambil dengar lagu Nidji kerana kecewa x g sunburst*

The Rapid guy! yg smiling, waving tuu...guess wat? His Married! ahaha shocking??not really i dh figure it out kot! I saw baby chair kat his car, tros sms Rin N Cik Halie*mcm citer gossip girl lak* ahaha...I known that guy dh 5-6 years but kenal2 camtu je ar! Kami slaloo jumpe kat Putra KLCC-Wangsa Maju, n we take the same shutter bus balik umah. So after that we started senyum2 n tegur2 laa...he's a nice guy!

*ngantok but x nak tido*

I make Browny fan page kat FB, wanna know y? not b'coz i really like/adore him. It's b'coz i dh t'ckp kat dier i nak wat kan...ahaha + dier dh ckp tima kasih! So wat kan laa...lagipon seronok laakk tgk his fans joinning the group. It's not bout angaw that i make it 4 him. Miss him...sangat2! Wonder if he know bout this shit*the carzee crush*! Ala sah i x kan tunjuk muke anywhere near him ahahaha...

*so long n good night!*