Thursday, April 23, 2009

The story




Hi...Hw did u guys deal with a broken heart? Erase all the memory bout u n him/her??? or juz ignore hw much u miss him/her??? or the feeling got stronger n stronger everytime u think bout him? Remove him/her from ur frenlist @ Facebook or Myspace?
Did u still check out his/her Facebook everyday? or Look at his/her picture? or Listening to his/her music? or Read about his/her in magazine???
Well if u guys ask me...i dunno hw to answer that question. I thought i wanna forget everything bout him, but i can't, i juz can't for now! I do hope my feeling juz go away! Maybe not meeting him for now is the best way to forget bout him! He is a great guy, sweet, funny(well he make me laugh all the time i met him!)warm, n awesome rocker! It's nice u know that i care n do trust me...u never know how i feel when u said "i have faith in u my young jedi" & "thanks for being caring" u make me me like u even more! but sayang.......!
I known Browny since 2006, at 1st i thought he was so "Sombong!" but turn up he's the frenly ones!( i mean it!) After the 2nd time i met him i really like this guy. I dun really know wat i saw in him...well he's not that bad, nice guy! & I remember the 1st time i saw the picture of him n his GF @ msn, i was so shocked! I can't really believe it! Until one day he show me the picture of her! She's HOT!(i mean it people!) Jealous? Yeah of coz! Sure i did! At that time i think, i shud stop having this stupid crush! Well i doesn't happen. Maybe i'm still hoping 4 a miracle! Which is so stupid! He's happy, i know he is! & i'll happy if he happy...& i dun mean to hate him, i pretend to so i can forget him! I'm so sorry...
Why now i decided that i wan to let go all of this crap?? ?i dun really have the answer rite now! Maybe when i know the answer i'll let u know! It's funny when i think about this shit! But i oso sad that it's time to let go! He's the great guy that i know. Any women out there is so damn lucky to have him as their BF!
I make a lot of nicknames for him, but the one that i really like is "Browny!!!" he didn't know that, n i hope he dun have to. Why i called him that? Coz of his skin colour! OK enough of it...i dh penat nk fikir bout him! Kang nangis susah hwahaha!see ya =)

Jijie Adore


P/S: What shud i do if Browny read this post???
A: Well...he shud know the truth! owh ya Bella Muerte was me!





The chosen song- Never Again By My fave dude Justin Randall Timaberlake



Would have given up my life for you
Guess it's true what they say about love
It's blind
Girl, you lied straight to my face
Looking in my eyes
And I believed you 'cause I loved you more than life
And all you had to do
Was apologize

You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me, again

No, no, no, no, no, no

Sadness has me at the end of the line
Helpless watched you break this heart of mine
And loneliness only wants you back here with me
Common sense knows that you're not good enough for me
And all you had to do
Was apologize, and mean it

But you didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me

I wish like hell I could go back in time
Maybe then I could see how
Forgiveness says that I should give you one more try
But it's too late, it's over now

You didn't say you're sorry
I don't understand
You don't care that you hurt me
And now I'm half the man
That I used to be when it was you and me
You didn't love me enough
My heart may never mend
And you'll never get to love me
Again

Again, yeah, yeah
Again, again, again, yeah, yeah, yeah
Never get to love me



never again - justine timberlake

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

breaking my own heart!

I rushed right in
Just like a fool
So struck down by you
I didn't know what to do

I started on
Breaking my own heart
Breaking my own heart
Breaking my own heart
Yeah

I started on
Breaking my own heart
Breaking my own heart

Yeah, I was frozen
By the pain
I tried
To reach out to you
But I felt so ashamed

So, I kept on
Breaking my own heart
Breaking my own heart
Breaking my own heart

I kept on
Breaking my own heart
Breaking my own heart

Save me
Somebody save me
From this misery
Love is killing me
Please save me

I need saving
Won't somebody save me
From this misery
Love is killing me
Ooo, save me

I hung on
To every word you say
In search of a sign boy
You felt the same way

But it was only me
Breaking my own heart
Breaking my own heart
Breaking my own heart

If I keep on
Breaking my own heart
Breaking my own heart

Save me
Won't somebody save me
From this misery
Love is killing me
Save me

I need saving
Won't somebody save me
From this misery
Love is killing me
Ooo, save me

Ooh Save
I said "Save me"
From this misery
Love is killing me
Please save me

This song r so wat i felt now!!! Esp.the line that i highlight! I really Breaking my own heart!!!
Pretty stupid huh! but this song r nice! i really love it!

Broken inside!




which one do u prefer more
lollipops or gum? gums
america or britain? americans
strawberries or bananas? bananas
spiderman or batman? batman...badboy boleh????
rocks or stones? stones!!!
may or october? may...
17 or 92? ermmm 17
scared or humiliated? scared..
bunny or rabbit? rabbit
tan or burgandy? burgandy
tropical or temperate? tropical
rabid dog or rabid raccoon? rahid racoon
vamps or werewolves? vamps
insomniac or nocturnal? huh, me i think insomniac

have you ever...
jumped off a house? gile...20 tingkat???mati laa
swam in freezing ice water? no
been attacked? by a crazy Dog...so yeassss!!!!
been made fun of? no
cried for no reason? yes..crazy huh!
been out of the country? yup
thought about death? yeshh
gotten seriously injured? never
gotten bit by someone? haha...it was Johnny"dasar lelaki kasar!"
screamed bloody murder? no...
been to a concert? yeah love it...
eaten snow? no snow here in m'sia
killed anyone? never
hurt somone psychially? nope
made someone cry? 2 or 3 laa..padan muka mereka
played with matches? nahhhh
been on a plane? yup
been to jail? hehehe i wish
laughed so hard it hurt? yeasss
read a book? hahaha yeah
tasted blood? my own...yeasss
cried yourself to sleep? yup when i was so little laa
physically hurt yourself on purpose? hehehe never
gotten revenge? nahhh
broken a promise? hehe yeah sometimes
been to church? ????muslim laa
hidden a part of your personality from the world?nope
blown a bubble (from your gum) while underwater? hehehe never
ran into a pole? yes
been extremely bored? yeah sometimes
played chess with a stranger? never
made a wild concoction and ate it? ewww
had a sad dream and woke up crying? never
lost a soul you loved? yeahh it's hurt
fell out of a tree? no...
lied about your age? never
been food poisoned? never
gone over Niagara Falls in a barrel? i wish

when's the last time you...
got kicked or slapped? ermmm 13 or 14(slapped)
talked on the phone? today
played a sport? hahaha
gone to camp? when i was 12
stayed home sick? x ingat laa
baked a cake? woohooo last 3 years
sang aloud? now.....
listened to music? now.... lady gaga
seen the snow? m'sia x de snow laa
went
got in a fight? yes! w this guy name Hafizan..he such a loser!
video taped? yeass yesterday, while singing Amoi cantik by Hujan heehehehe
saw a friend? everyday
went in a hottub? hehhe best laa
head banged? just now....
got a headache? now
tripped or fell? x ingat
got hurt? yesterday....
ate froot loops? ewwww
smiled? everyday but inside crying!
laughed? eveyday
swore out loud? yes!

do you like...
gum? yeah...dentyne berrykiss muahmuahh hahhaa
drums? if someone willing to teach me hehehe
britain? not really
tigers? baby tiger cute....
blood? no
waiting? 4 him 2 notice it n its hurt
telling people off? yeah
labels? hehhe yeahhh
winning? love it
competetition? it's hard bluekkk
sunlight? hate it!
night time? yeahhhh

just answer the questions...
what was the last book you've read? magazine laa book nope
what was the last movie you watched? he just not in to u- i really like it! coz man r jerk to me rite now!
whens the last time you sang jingle bells? last q'mas
what kind of music do you listen to? everything
if you got to be the age you are in any year what year would it be? sexy 30 hahahaha
whats your name? azeela
do you like marshmellows? yeahhhh
whats something that pisses you off? annoying....
whats you pet peeve about yourself? my dark secret!
how do you spell doughnuts/donuts? donuts
do you have a cat? yeah...really love them....
how many more days until school starts? i gradute already laaa
where are you? kl,m'sia
do you have any current cuts or bruises? cuts @ my finger ouchhh!!!
whens the last time you went to the beach? sumwhere last year!
who's the last friend you saw? azizi....@staff enterance hehehehe
what was your first favourite band? local- estranged,internatoinal-toomany to choose haha, but right now is 30 seconds to mars!
are you chewing gum right now?no



Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Sayonara Browny....


Hoollllaaa =) wat's up people??? Hope everything r great w u guys!
This past 2 week i'm so EMO, dunno y! Keep getting Bad Fucking Shit News! Kudos to Browny, my working ppl, few of FB frens...arghhh Fucking shit!i hate u all! But still i'm smiling, laughing..so i won't give a damn bout any of u guys!

Last saturday went out w/ 2 of my couz & my sis...watched "he just not that into you"@Pavilion.. I like the movie a lot...after watching it, i realize that my feeling for Browny so freakin' stupid...i mean really stupid! I know u won't balieve it, but i do feel it so BODOH! Sorry browny, maybe u dh perasan that i like u. Yeah that really that obvious kan!!! So please ppl if i do meet him then cair, do slap me! hwahaha i'm serious! i sampai change my desktop pic...no more pic me n him!

So sorry guys... this post is so EMO n i curse a lot! so c ya around! So this song is wat i feel for Browny now! Sayonara...Browny....




"My Happy Ending"

So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do [CD version]
All the stuff that you do [radio edited version]

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

[Chorus]

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

[Chorus x2]

[x2]
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
So much for my happy ending

Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...


Jijie Adore =)

Friday, April 10, 2009

zzzZZZzzzz

Holla all.... hw r u doin?? well i can't sleep maybe i minum nescafe ice td. So i decided to post a blog, lagi pon dh lama x update rite =)
Juz now i watch Unzipped @ 8tv website, kudos to Yaya for giving me the link.. so in the end of the video.
Browny said "The crowd is Awesome,crowd is great! Supportive! We met few of the crowd that been following us from the previous gig n everything. Rich managed to get them to sing, some of the song that their familiar with, like Itu kamu."
Awww i'm so touch! hehehe ;p

K enough of ANGAW...now wat happen in this few day!






Me having dinner w my bro(ijai),couz(Am) & sis amy @ TGIF, Pavilion. The food were nice..
That is Amy's doll,Scarlet apa ntah. Seriously the doll is so Scary. It's remind me of Chucky heheehe..
Amy said that i shud look @ this pic everyday, so i don't think that doll so scary hwahaha but i still do!







Wednesday 080409- My hotel giving out the certificate for those who didn't MC for 1 whole year.
Yeah n I got it!! but i didn't went to the event coz x nak naik stage(malas!)...so my Exec.Chef takes tha cert. on behalf of me. As a reward my hotel giving out RM 250+ certificate. Hehehe another budget 4 Bali baby!!!! hehe







Saturday 040409- So another gig from Estranged n i working Graveyard shifts..huhu! No sleep 4 me lor! Last saturday They having 2 gig in the same day, OU & Pavilion. Awesome rite? At 1st fieza n i planning wanna go both...but we got confused w Din's blog..so we decide to go @ OU... so @ OU meeting my dear2 fren( abby, yaya, k.na. halie, rin, sue ann & fiezza) After the show from Estranged, i told fiezza that i wanna go to Pavilion....
*sorry gurls but u know y i didnt stay to watch Pop shuvits. i wanna supports my Browny! but it doesn't mean i hate hangin out w u guys! so don't take it personally! i'm so so sorryyy!
i still love u guys!
So @ Pavilion, we arrived @ 6pm...when 4 makan coz i x makan from mornink...huhu
then we when outside(main enterance) n we saw hanafi =) camwhoring session n enjoy ourself w the show! Then rushing balik rumah, mandi n trus g keje! So damn tired but thats totally worth it!

Y i really enjoying myself going to their gig/shows...coz i was amazed with their growing fans!
To Estranged fans U guys ROCKS!!!!!







OK guys gwe udah ngantuk banget! Effect from Nescafe not strong enough 4 me hwahaha
So until the next post! Do check out my youtube channel
http://www.youtube.com/user/sycoz

Adios take care & B safe =)
Cheers Jijie Adore ;p



Friday, April 3, 2009

In No Time MV


Taken from Estranged Myspace =)




Paling kiri tu i...i found this picture from Aidi Blog...so KUDOS to MR AIDI =)









Hello boys n girls. Remember i joined the Estranged- In No Time MV? At last the video is out....It was direct By Mr Rewan Ishak. For me, personally the video was AWESOME..but some shot are to fast n too close. But over all i LOVE it! I kinda saw the video like 20-25X n finally i can see my self in the video..ahaha...It feels so damn funny to see ur own face in the video...




So do enjoy watching the video =) ADIOS
Make LOVE Not WAR!!!



I'm JiJiE AdOrE ;p
http://www.youtube.com/user/estrangedkl